Where to start, and how to finish?

I’m starting to write an ebook. It feels awesome, but I’m a bit squeaky at it. I like the fact that I can control the publication process, eliminating the long delays of finding a publisher and waiting for my book to be printed. 

I’ve been thinking of various subject areas that I am passionate about, that I can share with an equally transpiring audience. I’ve enjoyed releasing music till now, and it’s done wonders for my subscriber numbers and traffic. I’ve received tons of comments from people about how much they liked my music and how helpful and inspiring they found it. Maybe I can now create music to a reader’s ears?!

So here I am, sitting in front of my computer and staring at the seemingly insurmountable task represented by a new writing assignment. Flashbacks of my Bachelor of Arts Degree that took place scarring me 18 years ago come before me and blind me, setting me back! How can I possibly fit any large and comprehensive topic into one e-book? Maybe the answer is that I can’t? Or maybe I can? After all, millions of precedents of authors that have successfully done so come up on my search engine here.

Like any project that deals with a topic of significant breadth, I guess an outline is required now? How do I start to develop a theme for the content? Or can it simply be disseminated throughout the piece? A million questions present themselves in my mind, and now that voice appears – “your’e not good enough”. In response I say “only the most reputable sources should be used for this content, think positive!” And now I think I have my topic of conversation for my e-book, and perhaps even a title, “Will I Ever Be Good Enough?”

My first book just could be dedicated to suffers of abuse as children? Now thats a topic I’m passionate about!  Somehow it will provide the  assistance people need in order to overcome this debilitating history and reclaim their life. Drawing on two decades of abuse as a child and young person, messy relationships in my adulthood, and a decade of experience as a Life Coach, I can recognise the widespread effects of abuse and create an individualized program for self-protection, resolution, and recovery. 

As victims of abuse we become adults having difficulty overcoming feelings of inadequacy, disappointment, emotional emptiness, and sadness. We develop fears of abandonment that lead us to form unhealthy romantic relationships, as well as a tendency to perfectionism and unrelenting self-criticism, self-sabotage and frustration. I think I have the first paragraph to chapter 1 of my book! Here goes!

Website – nezerok.com

Gosh I never knew how much time and behind the scenes work went into creating a website! Here it is finally – gone live tonight – however Im still in the process of creating the itunes etc links! FRUSTRATION! 


Meanwhile, my heart and prayers go out to all those that are being affected in and around the Indian Ocean right now……God be with you.


My new track Transition is all about that! Transitioning…… Its all about moving on from the past and healing the wounds that I have so passionately somehow managed to hold onto over the years. Now I feel it is time to let them go. They no longer serve me. In doing so I thought the creative outlet of music could once again serve me, and came up with these lyrics together with my amazing and awesome producer Nik Felippe. Also, this track has the astounding rap vocal of S.O.X featuring in it. The first track I’ve incorporated rap into and must I say loved doing! He’s currently working on another track of mine called “goodbye” which I havnt released yet. I hope my listeners will enjoy my new track “Transition” and maybe even be inspired to do just that…transition into the areas they wish to be in….with ease 🙂

When everything is grey
Ive just gotta get away
Stop asking me to stay
I need a change of play.

Gotta keep on moving on towards the next goal
Gotta keep believing clouds will part and sunshine fill my soul

Coz i feel a transition coming on, coming on
My lifes intermission
Feeling strong, feeling strong
Im feeling invisible
Im soaring free, soaring free
Momentums unstoppable
This moment is pivitol, transitional.

The greys been forced away
And in the sun I lay
Im living out my days coz now Ive found my way.

Gotta keep on moving on towards the next goal
Gotta keep believing clouds will part and sunshine fill my soul
Coz I feel a transition coming on, Coming on,
My life’s intermission,
Feeling strong, feeling strong,
Im feeling invincible,
I’m soaring free, soaring free,
Momentums unstoppable,
This moment is pivotal,
Transitional for me.


Considering I’ve been rotting here in Melbourne for the last 3 weeks, I’ve booked my flights to Darwin where the weather is consistently 32 degrees, and where my cocktail by my resort swimming pool awaits me! Highlights include:

Day 1 The Florence Falls (opportunity to swim in the plunge pool), the Buley Rockhole and then visit Tolmer Falls for a magnificent view of the water cascading down below. Finally, to Wangi Falls for a climb to the top with Aboriginal elders.

Day 2 Im kinda over jumping Crocodiles but what the heck, why not face saltwater crocodiles close up as they leap out of the water to snatch their food!

Day 3 we will experience our tour to the Jim Jim Falls and Twin Falls which are a ‘must see’ on our Kakadu itinerary. We will travel through the savannah woodlands of Kakadu which appears lifeless, but has more fauna diversity than the Daintree rainforest. We will camp there for two days and hopefully not get eaten up by crocodiles lol.

Day 4 sunset Sailing Cruise relaxing under sail on our spacious sailing catamaran whilst watching one of Darwin’s famous sunsets sipping on some white wine.

Day 5 laze by the resort pool with tropical cocktails and some pampering.

I promise you I won’t miss you Melbourne.

Global epidemic – ADHD

How do we educate our children to take their place in the economies given that we cant anticipate how the economy is going to look next week? We are trying to meet the future by doing what they did in the past. We are alienating our kids by using this ancient education system built for the industrial revolution. Public education was a revolutionary idea. It was driven by an economic imperative at the time. Real intelligence consists nothing of academic activity! Many brilliant children think they are not because they are being judged by this model. They suffer the modern epidemic – ADHD! These kids are being medicated as routinely as we have our tonsils taken out. Our children are being bombarded with information from computers, from iphones from advertising from hundreds of tv channels. They are getting distracted from what? BORING stuff – school! These kids are being given drugs to get them to concentrate! What is going on????!?!?! This is a fictitious epidemic. We need change. We shouldn’t be putting our children to sleep to get them through the education. We should be waking them up to what is inside of themselves.


So Ive been sitting here trying to write a paragraph for my assignment for the last 2 hours or more now lol! THINK NEZ THINK! whats wrong with me? Im so distracted and just not interested! i would so much rather be in the studio right now making music with Nik, or walking along the beach on the sand in mother nature somewhere!




Lyrics Everything Nothing

Cos I’m good,
And I’m bad,
I’m always right,
But more than often I’m wrong,
I’m yours but,
I’m mine too,
My knees are weak my mind is strong.

And when I sink into your arms,
I’m flying away,
And all this energy is wasted,
Cos life is just a game.

Then I realise, seems I’m everything and nothing with you.
Mean, kind, same time, everything is perfect with you.
Tell me sweet lies, everything and nothing is true.
Love, fight, ignite, everything is nothing with you.

I’m close but,
I’m distant,
I’m always hot but more than often I’m cold,
And when I,
I live my life I won’t get old.

Then I realise, seems I’m everything and nothing with you.
Mean, kind, same time, everything is perfect with you.
Tell me sweet lies, everything and nothing is true.
Love, fight, ignite, everything is nothing with you.

Everything Nothing ~ new track

So here I am again, writing another track. This one is called “Everything & Nothing”. It’s about the laws of the universe – the law of opposites! All this work I’ve done with Dr John Demartini and MJB seminars over the weekend in Melbs kinda inspired me to do something different. The spectrum quantum mechanics takes us into with our emotions (energy in motion) is just profound! We can’t have an experience without experiencing it’s polar opposite at the same time. Negative positive, ying yang, right wrong, good bad etc etc. It’s all equal and opposite and equates to LOVE. So this track is about the perfect balance that exists weather we see it or not. Nik Felippe and his AWESOME production presents to you another house track – Everything & Nothing.